Julia Brown

Anonymous said: Thoughts on pitchfork review?

foxesinfiction:

It really hurt to read if I can be totally honest. it came at the end of what was the worst date on our tour where some of the craziest things happened; finding out a family member had been in a head-on car collision, someone in our van having a mental breakdown, the show in Austin getting cancelled due to weather, Owen Pallett’s drummer throwing out his back and having to sit the show out. Some of these things are far worse than others and I feel like a piece of shit for talking about in the same breath as music criticism but reading it after all those things came up yesterday made it feel a lot more devastating that it should have.

I don’t know, I am fairly unguarded with a lot of things like this and it really bummed me out to see him talk about something I put my whole self into for three years in such a disparaging way that invoked things like disparate levels of class, especially when my friends like Owen and the Orchid Tapes families are negatively implicated in a lot of what’s said there.

Ultimately I will try and pay it no mind, because I don’t expect a straight-white-dude critic at Pitchfork who is, above all else, notorious for being a mean-spirited writer to understand what I’m trying to do with my music, especially when I know so many other people do. I will try and turn it into an exercise of considering, but ultimately emotionally distancing myself from the effects of both criticism and praise alike. I feel like it is an all-or-nothing game with this sort of thing, and I think as both a label-operator and as someone who makes music, this is important.

I’m starting to think that Orchid Tapes / Foxes in Fiction isn’t something that I should continue trying to fit into an arena like Pitchfork. We’ve been having a lot of conversations on this tour about music writing and about what is considered objectively good in the minds of writers at places like Pitchfork, and I’m starting to see how that criteria sometimes disfavors people who are outsiders, or queers, or women or who are mentally ill; things we have tried to be inclusive about with Orchid Tapes forever. We’ve done so well because of smaller press and our amazing supporters, and I feel like maybe I tried to take too many steps forward with Ontario Gothic because I believe in it so much and am so in love with all my friend’s work on it. I’ve been thinking about this sort of stuff and how it implicates our release for a while, and I think it may be the time to do some thinking / decision-making and take a step back for the sake of maintaining what is important about the label.

The review opens with “At no point during Ontario Gothic does it sound like an album that would be subject to outside expectations, let alone hype.” and closes with “That speaks to the appeal of Orchid Tapes in the first place, a collective that stands to snag the interest of anyone invested in the concepts of “punk”, “indie”, “scene”, and “DIY””. Both of these statements miss the aim and intention of Foxes in Fiction & Orchid Tapes so grandly that the rest of the review kind of loses power on me. I’m not making or releasing music with the label I founded to satisfy expectations or play into ideas of hype, I am doing it for people who are mentally ill, who are queer, who are who are young and living in an awful small town and need a connection with music, for disenfranchised and marginalized people who have been in similar situations to me where music was able to help me though it and ultimately inspire me to start something like Foxes in Fiction or Orchid Tapes. If one person at an institution-as-website doesn’t get that, that’s fine.

were an idiosyncratic no-fi folk band!

“ I listened to the new Julia Brown album on the plane back to Chicago: ‘I KNOW SOMETIMES I CANT LEAVE MY BED I KNOW IVE SAID IT AGAIN AND AGAIN IVE TRIED TO MAKE A DEAL WITH GOD I JUST WANT A BETTER LIFE FOR MY MOM’

They’re the most capital letters I’ve heard in forever and they’re not screaming against wealth or war or any of the political structures that bothered everybody from the Ramones to Cobain. They’re screaming against the vague ubiquitous feeling that everyone here who is young doesn’t deserve to exist because we didn’t follow rules that shattered right in front of our eyes. ”

sylmatil (via sleepiestboy)

that’s not true whatsoever. i don’t know where yall got this idea or notion from but uh

ontario gothic (foxes in fiction cover)

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Posting this before someone goes ahead and posts it anyway
Julia Brown - An abundance of strawberries
Art by Colleen Wynn, Adam Pichardo, Warren Hildebrand & Sam Ray.
13 tracks, no official release (yet) but if you want to hear it, aren’t rude, and won’t leak it, email at hhhhsamray@gmail.com and talk to me about it/why you wanna hear it/just ask and i’ll send it when I have a chance. Just don’t leak it. We’ll talk.

An abundance of strawberries, Snow day, All alone in bed, 25 days(may15), Without you (full), Abby’s song, You can always hear birds, The way you want, Loved, The body descends, Possession (full), Closing (on a roof), Bloom

Posting this before someone goes ahead and posts it anyway

Julia Brown - An abundance of strawberries

Art by Colleen Wynn, Adam Pichardo, Warren Hildebrand & Sam Ray.

13 tracks, no official release (yet) but if you want to hear it, aren’t rude, and won’t leak it, email at hhhhsamray@gmail.com and talk to me about it/why you wanna hear it/just ask and i’ll send it when I have a chance. Just don’t leak it. We’ll talk.

An abundance of strawberries, Snow day, All alone in bed, 25 days(may15), Without you (full), Abby’s song, You can always hear birds, The way you want, Loved, The body descends, Possession (full), Closing (on a roof), Bloom

An abundance of strawberries 

Snow day

All alone in bed

25 days (may15)

Without you (full)

Abby’s song

You can always hear birds

The way you want

Loved

The body descends

Possession (full)

Closing (on a roof)

Bloom

This world could have been so many things and so could I

is this resignation right?

Don’t show my teeth, don’t call that phone

a mechanical fantasy come to life

bright pink, again and again

riding his bike in the rain

long coat flowing out behind him

and you sing

"i think i’ll move back to the country"

well you won’t, you’ll get a job at the mall

and maybe i won’t get a job at all

i like to think it could bring me back

if i lie facedown on the couch for long enough

spaced out, pumped full of dilaudid again

i could still feel as much as i like to think i used to feel then

but in truth i never felt that much

and it’s just the first twenty five or so spring days of the year

that bring me back there now

and then it’s gone

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this past weekend we got to play a couple songs in our backyard & for one of them we covered mat’s ‘her sinking sun’, which we decided to play that morning & spent all afternoon practicing so we could do this. our bud jeff from wish list fills in on “percussion” aka banging a can with johns car keys in it while waiting for a ride home. jeff also made all of our teen suicide shirts & the orchid tape shirts too (one of which he’s wearing) his band rocks and they’re putting out a really great album soon. filming this was a really great and amazing experience that made me feel really good about music & generally a lot of things. i also saw a really big spider. well have a couple other vids up i think at some point too. thanks so much to rachel for filming these. 

 

420lovesongs:

happy friday

this world could have been so many things and so could i

is this resignation right?

don’t show my teeth, don’t call that phone

a mechanical fantasy come to life

bright pink, again and again 

riding his bike in the rain 

long coat flowing out behind him

and you sing 

"i think i’ll move back to the country"

well you won’t, you’ll get a job at the mall

and maybe i won’t get a job at all

i like to think it could bring me back

if i lie facedown on the couch for long enough

spaced out, pumped full of dilaudid again

i could still feel as much as i like to think i used to feel then

but in truth i never felt that much

and it’s just the first twenty five or so spring days of the year

that bring me back there now

and then it’s gone

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i wrote two songs yesterday and this is one of them. it’s one of my favorites this year/ever. it’s weird as hell. it’s deeply (probably too) personal but i don’t believe in earnestness, only sincerity, a deep rooted fatalism, and offhanded quippy-ness really. so it’s got that maybe. no artist name no release nothing. thanks to spencer from blithe field for letting me sample the hell out of his songs to help make it. along with bogdan raczynski, cassie, and cat power too for that matter i guess, though they won’t hear it most likely lol.

thanks. the other song is going to come out in july. goodbye for a bit. 

- sam